Cover -- Praise -- Title page -- Copyright -- Dedication -- Contents -- Author's note -- Prologue: GUTTER -- PART I -- BUTTERFLIES AND CHEWED-OFF FINGERNAILS -- EVERYONE CALLED HIM JIMMY JACK -- FISH HOOKS -- THE BOY ON THE WING -- THE TASTE OF METAL -- TRESPASSERS WILL BE PROSECUTED -- L'APPEL DU VIDE -- PART II -- FINGERS IN THE DIRT -- FRONT LINE -- HARD, FAST, CLEAN -- WHEN THE LAKE FREEZES OVER -- ICARUS -- CHASE, TACKLE, SPREAD -- 'GET IT DONE?' -- KINTSUGI -- 'NO' -- KNUCKLES -- 426 -- DILUTE -- SPRAY-PAINTED GREEN -- FUCK -- PART III -- DOM -- OUT -- JUST ONE OR TWO -- THE 27 CLUB -- SCAR -- BROTHER -- 28 -- I'M SORRY -- PART IV -- SOUTH -- THE ARTIST -- UMA THURMAN'S EYES -- 10.4.21 -- Coda -- Acknowledgements
Summary
A brutally honest memoir that completely rethinks what it means to be a man