Intro; Contents; Acknowledgements; Introduction; 1 Into the Desert; 2 Something More?; 3 Just Trying to be Normal; 4 What Really Matters; 5 Eight Thoughts; 6 Benedict; 7 A Little Rule for Beginners; 8 Seeing the Self as Other; 9 Against the Grain; 10 Being Still; 11 Silence; 12 Faith and Doubt; Postscript